last night i dreamed that i choked a man out with an iphone charger
i remember feeling like he didn’t deserve it, but we were in some kind of battle arena & i’m actually a very competitive person even if i’m not .. . good at the thing .
a friend recently informed me that i appeared in one of his dreams pretending to be a zombie & made him climb a barbed wire fence to let me into a window of my own apartment - definitely sounds like something i would do :0
what if the dream versions of us are really us in alternate universes?
i’m currently reading Paprika by Yasutaka Tsutsui - it’s a techno-thriller about scientists who hop into people’s dreams to heal their schizophrenia. full disclosure: so far there’s only been one r*pe scene and a smidge of homophobia, but i am containing my nausea & enjoying the futuristic psychedelic imagination vs. reality aspect of it. will watch the movie after i finish (it was Satoshi Kon’s last feature film). check out this short explainer video i made :)
beds are actually portals to alternate universes
why am i so obsessed with sleeping & dreaming? probably because i am narcoleptic
it all started in middle school when i was falling asleep during sermons (expected?) and at school. falling asleep during class was by no means uncommon for a few select star students, especially with the academic pressure of staying up late to study. everyone was really trying to help me out: teachers would make me stand for entire classes, throw markers at me, classmates would kick my desk to wake me up during tests. i drooled on my shirt @ a foxing concert. then i woke up in the driver’s seat on the intersection of Barham Blvd & Lakeside Plaza. one time i was napping in my car on lunch break and was violently shaken awake, thinking a colleague at Lionsgate had found me out - it was just an earthquake. then i moved to new york with no car to nap in. after being taken aside by HR who told me someone had reported me for falling asleep at my desk a lot, was i ok? i finally saw a psychiatrist for it in 2018 (he looks like anthony kiedis) who put me on modafinil - that shit was life-changing !! (apparently you can get it OTC in mexico.) some people describe it as a cleaner-feeling adderall without the edgy side effects, but for me, it just keeps me awake when i’m “supposed” to be, which is very helpful for long days on set.
on running
i almost missed my flight because my boots were stuck in the x-ray machine. running on Trav-O-Lators hurts, even in socks.
i started long-distance running in 2021, wanting to get better at DDR. zigitzz8 kept getting triple A’s (perfect combo) on expert level and told me i just needed to get my cardio up - he introduced me to Dyckman Run Club & Harlem Run. i won a pair of arteryx norvans from PME last spring & ran my first half-marathon race under the stars at zion in the fall. (that shit was treacherous but beautiful.) read What I Talk Aboot When I Talk Aboot Running by Murakami. fighting ADD & depression !!
they opened the gate back up because the coffee machine & toilet wasn’t working <3 this very professional looking older man on my flight next to me just hastily turned his phone on silent after opening Candy Crush, hehe
i’ve already watched EEAAO 3x, what are u waiting for?
xoxo yessy